The year is .... coming to an end?

 It's that time of the year again.
The end of the year and beginning of a new fresh one.

Honestly this year, many things have actually happened to me. Lots of mistakes were made. Many lessons were learnt the heard way. All of which I could say has occurred for the best.
If I were to cross the same situation again next year, hopefully I'll do even better

The end of this semester also marks the end of my foundation.
How was it you say?
I actually don't have much fond memories. Memories that I would hold for life. But the only time I felt like I was being myself was during an English play.
That was the only time I felt like I was really enjoying myself. Or so I thought. The journey became less painful when a few people started to understand what I was going through.
Noticed the change that I went through from the beginning till the end.
As I was sad that as foundation was ending and that I had to move onward to the next step, They actually couldn't help but feel so relieved that foundation was coming to an end.

Regardless of what your choices are my friends, I wish the best for you.

 Deemo - Wings Of Piano

I look forward to what the next year will bring.

 Who knows, It could be better or worse
But I will face it head on. With the help of my close friends, I would be able to face challenges that lie ahead of me.

To those that have been with me through thick and thin, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Your support let it be in the least way possible.
I am truly grateful.

Reading back my blog post sometimes brought tears to me as I decided to post instead of doing something ridiculous that I would terribly regret.

Yet so little time....

Yes, It has been a while again.

Everything seems to pile up again. Assignments, Quiz, Presentations and Projects.

Mostly all I could probably handle if everything went smoothly. Studies and team work is all that is required.

It is beginning to get even more and more hectic. More notes to study and understand. More drama happening during classes.

Sometimes I wonder why do conflict even happens in classes? We have been together for almost a year and yet I don't feel like I'm in a classroom. Then again, maybe it's just me?

 There are times when I look back and I begin to wonder what would I have done if I could start back all over again?
There are so many things I wish that I would have done last time and I don't have the time to do it now. It seems like there is no more time left to spare in the current situation.
After I'm done with foundation, it leads to degree. After degree perhaps another course?
Then Job?
Work?
The list goes on and on

But the fear comes to me that will I live to see that day come?
We take for granted that everyday is just a usual day but have you ever thought what would you do if you don't wake up the next day?
Have you any regrets?
Would you still hold grudges with anyone that you dislike?

Life is too short to make problems.
If something is bothering you, Just get over it.

Hope that I could say that to myself hahaha

Speaking of which,
I have been playing this game for quite some time

Brave Frontier

There is a Japan server and Global server.

Since I obviously don't understand Japanese, I'm playing the Global version which is in English. It's a rather interesting game where you are a "Summoner" that summons units to fight for you on your quest to kill the four Fallen Gods or something like that. Some times I deviate from the quest to do events or other stuff in game that I forgot about the main story line of the game XD

Anyways,

Your journey begins as a summoner, you summon more units or capture rare units from your dungeons (if your lucky enough, Capturing units does have rates) and progress through the story.

Maybe I'll explain more about this game later on if I have the time.

If your interested in this game, It's available in both IOS and Android.

 You can also add friends in game and you are given a choice to bring in friend unit which is the leader of the squad that you are currently selected.
Most probably better to start playing the game and learning through tutorial at this point. If not, you'll most probably not understand what I'm saying here :x

I guess that is it for now.
Hope I get to spend more time here ^^

Till Next Time~!

Life is testing me

 It has been a while since I said anything. It seems to be getting tougher and tougher each and everyday. With what I have to put up with. There are many things I wish i could have but life isn't that simple.And these things are beyond your control
You can't simply just take it in and hope for the best.
Because deep inside, I feel pain that no one has felt/

So I just put on a straight face and embrace everyday. Hoping that one day I'll find someone who understands me through thick and thin. Understand what it means to be me and in return, me understanding what it is to be him.

I'm not changing anybody

I'm just asking for someone to understand me for who I am

Because I'm kinda sure that I can relate to understanding you for who you are. I don't judge. I don't hold grudges. I treat you for who you are.

But if you don't tell me what is wrong, how can I help?

If we're suppose to work together for an assessment of some sort, How can I include your work or ideas if your just quiet in a corner?

How can a group come together if only 1 person is talking?

"GET BACK YOU SAVAGES"

Sometimes I just want to curl up in a ball and just stay that way, not looking at any one at all.

Keeping everything to myself.

Because not everyone thinks the way I do, the differences in us is what makes us humans. It is what that defines us.

Maybe I'm over thinking?

Perhaps that I have enough problems that when I think about this i go overboard?

Maybe so

But I can't deny the fact that I feel like a stranger everyday when I enter the room. None other then the person sitting in the same table with me or beside me during classes.

Other then that?

Response only when necessary....

Until when I have to keep it?

But to whoever reading this, Have an Awesome Day~ :)
You are who you are, and you can become anything you want to be.
Don't let any one influence or change your mind

Nyan~~~

Naruto Shippuden Opening 16 Lyrics - Silhouette by KANA-BOON

Isse noosee de humi kumi gorain
Bokura wa nani mo nani mo mada shiranu
Isenkoete furi kaeru tomou nai
Bokura wa nani mo nani mo mada shiranu

Udatte Udatte Udatte ku
Kirameku ase ga kobereruno sa
Oboere nai kotomotaku san attadarou
Dare mo dare mo shiruetto

Daiki ni shitai mono motte otonani narunda
Donna toki mo hana sazuni mamori tsukikeyou
Soshi tarai tsuno hinika
Nano mo dare wo waraeru sa

Hirari to hirari to matteru sa
Konoha ha tonde yuku

Too much work....

Who Missed Me!

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No 1? D:

I have been really busy. With all the assignments, quizzes, and revision, I feel like I have no time to lose at all. Though there are at times when I feel like there are so much stuff to do I end up doing things that I shouldn't do at all.

Recently I keep getting headaches because I'm paired up with people who seem like they really don't want do anything be part of anything the group is assigned to. I also head of come other cases where some people are actually upset due to other reasons that have happened in the past

Dude, seriously? IT'S IN THE PAST. LET GO OF IT

If your upset just because of something that has already happened, you will never change. There has to be a reason for everything. Nothing happens for no absolute reason at all.

Unless your really stubborn then nobody can help you ._.

So I tell myself that there are always good things awaiting you in the future. If that specific person is not helping you and treating you differently, then I would say F*** that person off. You are in control of your own life. If he is not doing anything, then accept the challenge and do what you need to do by yourself or with people who are willing to help you.

Don't lower your standards to the point where that person drags you down. You are actually letting him win.

Don't step down.

Do what you can.

If your stressed out, find a good friend and hang out. Let loose for a day. Set your mind straight. And come back stronger then ever.

I'm really beginning to lose it now sometimes. Nowadays, I keep getting glimpse of my past friends in other people. You know when you see somebody that is very similar? And I mean VERY SIMILAR. There was once I was shocked to only found out that the person is actually somebody else

But after I'm done crying in the corner of the room, I make sure I stand up back again with my own 2 feet.

Don't let other people make a fool out of you.
Have an Awesome Day People~! :D

Let bygones be bygones

Okay, Nothing much happening this few days
OR mostly I'm just too busy to update. Whichever that fits.

Well, these past few weeks has been a lot of work and stuff to study. Works are coming in. Assignments and quizzes are also coming. Class still remains the same. Its been a few solid weeks and I think i have changed for the better. I hope. For some situations I can learn to accept it and move so I guess I really did learn something from the past.

But the past is meant to remain in the past. Don't dwell about it or keep bringing it up especially if its something bad or unpleasant. Live with it and just move on. Regardless if it is something that somebody else do to you. It is already over. If that person is still being mean to you for absolutely no reason, then just ignore them and do what you do. Life is too short to spend on people that don't like you.

Hmmm
I really don't have much to talk about.
Perhaps next time when my mind is not so mixed up xD

What friends?

 I really have had it ._.
THAT IS IT~!
I'm Gone~!

Bai bai old me. I guess some people will never get to know you better :D

Why your ego gotta be so high?

Seriously, people like this sometimes really get on my nerves ._.

Yeah, I have been kinda on going recently with all these posts. I feel like just writing or saying stuff out. If your going through the same situation then you not need fret as there are many other people having the same problem out there as well xD

Anyway,

WHYYY

WHYYYYY

Ego people sometimes are just really....

ARGGGG

Don't want to give in ._.

People try help you say your way better then when messed up. Don't even want to apologize. I don't even =='

Haihzzz

Well, lucky I'm the person I am today. Not easy to spark and explode me unless you really want me to explode on purpose. I realised that I have learnt so much from being under pressure to the friends you make in person.

Some are just okay when some are just horrible. Regardless, I don't treat everyone based on my opinion because there are always things that you may now know about that specific person. Maybe he has problems but is having difficulty to express them even towards their family.

I'm me and nothing can change that. If you have a problem with me, Just say it! Its not like I'm going to kill you or something. I rather be stabbed in the front at a specific time then be stabbed anonymously at the back with no clue when its going to happen

Some of you are like,

"OHHH, If your say better to be opened, then why are you posting stuff about this and that without letting the real person know? Your contradicting what you say? booooo"

Well, Most people are not like me. They can't take a simple joke or anything to do with other personal stuff. Those I know can handle it, I'll be straight forward. But others? Sometimes its just better to be quiet.... Like I said before, You really need to know who your friends are. :D

Well, That's about it.
Don't let these people ruin your day.
Now go out and have a great day everyone!!! :DDD

How bout Relationship?

Wassupz~!

Its been awhile xD

Had a rather wonderful weekend with lots of movies for the weekend. Into The Storm was a disappointment. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle was a little bit off but it was ok I guess.

Enough about that :P

Now recently, my head tends to think about things that I should really not make a big fuss about. My studies, what I do in my free time, revision and other stuff. I'm being so controlled now that sometimes I feel like just crying for days to come. My condition when I enter my university class doesn't help at all. At the beginning of the first sem, I had high hopes for the class thinking that this at least would be better then the last. Turns out this was actually worst.

Before hand, If your 1 of my classmates and your actually reading this post, I apologize. There are many good things about everyone but most of the bad stuff really annoys me to the point I find it hard to keep forgiving every single time you repeat it. So for the second sem, I'm really giving up hope. No more. Enough for me. I'm just gonna sit by the sidelines and only interact when I have to.

This is another thing that is bothering me. I know I'm doing my best to not make scene because I know I'm not perfect as well. But after countless of advise from not even the lecturers, they still end up doing it. I thought I would be relieved but I wasn't really surprised when nothing really changed

 Same goes when I'm home. Being the youngest in the family, I realized that I do not have any power to even sound my opinion at some point. Like when someone is clearly doing something wrong but I can't sound to them.
As for friends? If your trying to tell them nicely or trying to help them in other ways, They interpret you differently and start accusing you or other stuff.

I'm going off topic ._.

Well, I was thinking about relationship when I started this post but it started off towards friends and family instead.
Hahaha

How do I start?
Hmmm

As for me, I always believe there is a silver lining in everything. That everything happens for a reason and Nothing occurs without him knowing.
Some of you might be in a relationship, looking for one, or maybe going to get married soon. However do take note that all of this is only my personal opinion.

You will not meet the perfect one on the first try.

I've had my own experience in some of these cases. I wasn't actually in a serious relationship to the point where parents start calling and stuff like that. It happened once and it really opened a big thought in my head ever since. Interested to hear one of my stories?

Hmmmm....

I guess I could tell you about the time I met someone virtually online.

And before you go all, 

"Ohhhh how could you really meet and know someone online? Maybe that person is just taking advantage over you and blah blah blah"

This wasn't really planned for okay?

I met up with her in an online MMORPG 

1. (an online role-playing video game in which a very large number of people participate simultaneously.)

We became virtual online couples and weeks after that I was surprised itself when she gave me her real phone number. This of course was a shock to me. I took down the number of course but I didn't contact her because I said to myself that this was clearly a joke?

Funny enough the next few days, she asked me why I didn't reach her? I said I had "forgotten" her number and gave her mine instead thinking that she possibly wouldn't even dare get into contact with me. Then at night, She really did started to text me. Of course during that time, my phone wasn't as smart as it would be now if now I'm sure our relationship would have gone in a different direction from then. 

That was the start of what I would say a "Relationship" I guess?

We started texting daily whenever we could. One thing that bothered me however was that she didn't call. No matter how much I brought the topic up, she wouldn't let me call her or video chat. I did see pictures but it could be anyone so I actually wanted to wait until I could see her properly. My idiotic dumb past self however kept bugging her until she finally lost it. One thing lead to another and it was done for.

Thinking back. I always wondered what would happened if I was a little bit different. Then again, if that didn't happen then I would be clueless about what was going to come in the future. With more bigger crap coming at me.

But as I said, Everything happens with reason. I'm sure sooner or later it was not meant to last. 

"He did not permit to be with her but he gave me the sight of her few years after I left her"

I saw her in a college that I told her last time I would be studying in the future and she said she would too. When I got there, I tried finding her anonymously but to no avail. I gave up after the first month but I saw a similar figure at the gates one day. I managed to contact her through whatsapp (My phone has gotten smarter since) hoping she would reply one last time. She did and was surprised that I saw her because she was actually there at that certain time. 

Of course I could rather tell that she no longer didn't want to talk to me at all after all this years. So I didn't continue talking to her after a few days.

So yeah~

Maybe like what my friend says, Relationship at these times are usually fake and won't last long.

Guess that is it for now.
Till Next Time~! :D

Anger? Upset?

Yoooo~!

Well, it is the beginning of the first week after my break so I guess i'm taking it slow for a bit. I could always get started with the early topics. I did start reading a few stuff for Maths and also the literature part of English. Somehow I find that when I'm updating and writing this, I feel more like myself. If you find anything here that helped you, I'm grateful. If your hating then, well, you could always close the tab :D

I wanted to talk about Anger issues and stuff. Everyone gets angry once in a while. Regardless it could be your friend who keeps bugging you, maybe a brother/sister who really annoys you, or people that you virtually meet online. Maybe even a text message or a whatsapp text from your friend.

Obviously when your angry, you don't really think straight. Your mind automatically goes to rage with every thought of how much you hate that particular person and how to get back to that person just because he made you mad over something that you shouldn't really care.

I'm sure people reading this will be like

"Oh it's easy for you to say. If your getting mad over something, it's because it is a sensitive issue if you talk about etc etc etc"

Some people don't know what they are saying that offends you so the best way is to tell them

For the other people who deliberately gets on your nerves, poking you with a stick waiting for you to erupt is another completely different case.

These people usually have motive to get you angry. Let it be to use your anger to lead you to your downfall or just to see you get mad for no reason.

And like I said, when your angry, you tend to do crazy stuff and say things that you don't mean.

The best solution for me

is to just do nothing.

Respond casually if there are seriously asking you a question. But if its just some retarded question or something just to get you angry. Just sit there with your best poker face and pretend you didn't hear anything.

The first thought that usually comes to your head will be like..

"What does he want? Why is he asking this again? I feel like telling him off.... Crap, now the teacher coming. Scold me? I wasn't even talking.... This guy beside me just cannot keep quiet? I get the blame.. zzzzz"

Just and example in school.

Once your in a situation like this, just don't respond to him and pay attention in class.

Sooner or later, it'll stop and the person will just ask the teacher instead. If that person is your friend and gets upset, you could always talk to him later after class.

Wouldn't that be better then pulling a sour face or getting mad for no good reason?

Same thing goes over in social media!

There are people who are just plain keyboard warriors where insults just keep coming on and on.
Just ignore them. To acknowledge them is just a waste of your time.
Go and do whatever you want instead :D

At the end of the day, you'll be the most happiest person

Feeling a baaws because nothing can ruin your day. Those haters and internet keyboard warriors doesn't affect you. Its their choice to be what they want so you can't so anything about them but you can do something about yourself.
Leave them at what they are doing
Do what you want to do

Life is too short too be angry or upset.
Enjoy your life and don't lose sight of what is important! :D

Sword Art Online - SAO

Well, its been quite some times. Ever since my last post I was on break but was too busy with all the exams and others. Not to mention fasting and also Hari Raya after that. Soon after I'm back to my classes.

However, its still the first week so the lecturers are warming up and most students are still lazing around campus. Guess I can take it easy for the first few weeks before the big bomb drops. So I decided to watch anime.

Sword Art Online

I got so hooked on that I finished the entire season 1 and season 2 till the current episodes.
The first 15 episodes were interesting as it was like the plot followed.
Some people started to dislike SAO (Sword Art Online) after that episodes as it branched out to other stuff.

Though season 2 was really interesting.
Most people started to watch and follow again however there are a number of people who were discussing about the main character's avatar as it changes with the story line.
This actually makes it more interesting for me as you get to see new characters? I guess?

Well, maybe we'll see how season 2 goes on. So far there's only a handful of episodes released and I'm dying for the rest of the entire season @.@

MapleStory Post "R.E.D. : Kritias - Event Notes"

For those who haven't read through the notes, you do so at the link given.

http://maple.asiasoftsea.com/updates/view/red_kritias_-_event_notes/#.U7zqQPmSxcs

1. RED Summer Attendance Check Event Season 3 (Event Date: 9/7/2014, 0900hrs – 22/7/2014, 0859hrs (+8 GMT) )

Attendance Rewards:

Day 1:
• 10 x Power Elixir 

Day 3:
• 5 x Red Coin 

Day 5:
• 10 x Red Coin 

Day 7:
• 20 x Red Coin 

Day 9:
• 1 x Additional Potential Scroll 60% 

Day 11:
• 1 x Golden Hammer 50% 

Day 13:
• 1 x Chaos Scroll of Goodness 50% 

Day 14:
• 1 x Unique Potential Order 50% 

I kinda like the rewards for this attendance check. Not only does it have loads of scroll which are very useful for upgrading your equipment and armor, you also get a Golden Hammer and a few Red Coins.

This attendance check will be taken once you completed the quest by hunting 30 Cool Summer Shaved Ice for Cassandra.

2. Sea Shells Attendance Event (Event Date: 23/7/2014, 0900hrs – 5/8/2014, 0859hrs (+8 GMT) )

Attendance Rewards:

Day 1:
• 10 x Power Elixir 

Day 3:
• 1 x Accessory order form exchange coupon 

Day 5:
• Order of chaos 60% 

Day 7:
• 1 x Lucky day scroll 

Day 9:
• 1 x Seal of the editional carving with the highest 

Day 11:
• 1 x High quality equipment enhancement scroll 

Day 13:
• 1 x Character slot expansion coupon 

Day 14:
• 1 × 2 star equipment enhancement scroll 

This is another attendance check after the previous 1.

One reward that you should surely get is the Character slot expansion coupon which would expand another slot in your account. What character you would make, you could always decide later after you get the slot.

The scrolls are quite good as well but I heard that the High quality equipment enhancement scroll actually destroys your equipment on failure making it so like the Advance equipment enhancement scroll. So make sure you read the description of the scroll before scrolling any tylent equipment. 

The seal would prove useful as well.

30 pieces of Five-color Clam Shell

3. Battle of Sheep Ranch (Event Duration: 2/7/2014, 0900hrs – 29/7/2014, 2359hrs (+8 GMT) )

Reward exchange:
• Collect enough points and you can exchange them for rewards!
• 3000 points : Wolf hat 
• 3000 points : Wolf Suit 
• 1000 points : Order form for wolf equipment only 

Medal:
• Win 20 times and you will get a medal, “Ruler of the Sheep Ranch” 
• Win 40 times and you will get a medal, “Whether it’s a wolf or a sheep” 

I'm not really keen on this event as I'm not really interested in the rewards. You could always get the Wolf hat and Suit + scrolls for your low lvled characters so that they could easily train but these items are only inter-account transaction for only once. Then the item becomes untradeable.

4. [RED] Delight!! Coupon to Double the Experience Everyday (Event Duration: 2/7/2014, 0900hrs – 29/7/2014, 2359hrs (+8 GMT) )

• Speak to the Maple Administrator or click the Event Star on the left of the screen.
• Accept the quest [RED] Delight!! Coupon to Double the Experience Everyday
• You will receive the 2x EXP coupon  that expires at 2359hrs (+8 GMT) daily.
• You will be able to obtain this coupon daily by repeating this quest during the event period.

2x EXP coupon!

2 coupons daily, 30 min each.

Make sure your line is stable before going on a grinding spree for 30 minutes for each coupon.

The coupon acts as a buff and will disappear if you dc or die.

5. [9th Anniversary] Maple Firecracker Gift (Event Duration: 9/7/2014, 0900hrs – 29/7/2014, 2359hrs (+8 GMT) )

• Speak to the Maple Administrator or click the Event Star on the left of the screen.
• Accept the quest [9th Anniversary] Maple Firecracker Gift
• Kill the maple firecracker monsters to collect Maple Fireworks 

Another event which allows you to get Kuro equipment for your characters.

*Recap* 1.RED Summer Attendance Check Event Season 3 (9/7/2014, 0900 hrs - 22/7/2014, 0859 hrs) +8GMT 2.Sea Shells Attendance Event (23/7/2014, 0900 hrs - 5/8/2014, 0859 hrs) +8GMT 3.Battle of the Sheep Ranch (2/7/2014, 0900 hrs - 29/7/2014, 2359 hrs) +8GMT 4.[RED] Delight!! Coupon to Double the Experience Everyday (2/7/2014, 0900 hrs - 29/7/2014, 2359 hrs) +8GMT 5.[9th Anniversary] Maple Firecracker Gift (9/7/2014, 0900 hrs - 29/7/2014, 2359 hrs) +8GMT