Sometimes all you need is a little motivation...

Busy busy busy. That is the only thing that ever comes to my mind the past few weeks or perhaps has it been months?

Hey everyone.

Well regardless how busy I am, I still make an attempt to reward myself every once in awhile (or maybe too often) by playing games or getting that delicious desert/coffee that I crave.

Don't forget MapleStory as well as another new game that I'm hooked on Marvel vs Capcom infinite but I'll leave that topic for another day.

This has been a topic that I really wanted to touch on for a very long time ever since I started my degree in Pharmacy. I just never took the time to actually sit down and write a post about it.

And it is about motivation

Now you are going to say "Oh its easier said than done, I still feel like giving up everyday regardless how much I get myself together"

That is not the point. The point is for you to maintain grip of yourself and follow the line that you started. Sure you may have gone off the lines a few times or maybe erased and started back. 

But it is the SAME line and eventually you will reach the end.

I want to share something that opened my eyes before I entered my PRE-U course and till this day I remember it as though it only happened yesterday.

As most people are aware, I actually dropped out of a-levels. It was the most devastating time of my life. I felt so hopeless, Felt so worthless.

Both my brother both took a-levels and regardless of their results they actually made it through and completed it. I couldn't even complete it and it was the exact same scenario.

My parents didn't want to put much pressure into me so when I told them my results on the verge of tears, they told me its best to cut short of where I was during that point of the semester and start a new on whatever I wanted to do. This is good yeah, but it doesn't change the fact that I actually DROPPED out of the course.

So after a few days of following my parents around hometown and all. One of my auntie on my fathers side sat down and had a chat with me regarding my future plans of studying and what should I pursue. Keep in mind I was still feeling very down about my drop out. I had some minor thoughts about continuing Foundation but I had no real clear goals.

She told me to cheer up and say there's always other opportunity and stuff with all the usual chatter.

But she did something different, 

She handed me a piece of paper along with a pencil.

She asked me to not use my writing hand for this and then told me to draw a tree.

I didn't want to think much or say much being that fact I wanted to be left alone and cry deeply inside (xD i'm joking ok). I just swapped the pencil to my left hand and drew a very simple tree. It wasn't the best but hey its not my regular hand.

She then told me to draw an elephant and it could be anywhere in the picture of the tree.

 And this point I was slightly weirded out by such a request but I didn't say much. I just used the pencil and draw an elephant at best I can beside the tree.
The elephant looked so horribly disfigured that I actually made myself laughed a little.

Then, what I felt the real talk started.

She took the picture and said with a smile on her face.
"Have you tried drawing a tree and an elephant with not your comfortable hand before?"

Then it hit me what she was trying to say and till now I use those words for me to keep moving forward.

At that point 1 of my uncle came in and she asked him if he could distinguish what are the pictures that I have drawn on the paper. He said a tree and an elephant

She told me that my mind is very focused (the very science student type of thinking)
I did not hesitate to draw.
I did not question my ability to draw.
I have not even drawn an elephant before.
I just drew the picture using the hand that I wasn't comfortable with.
And yet other people can still notice the drawing I made.

The paper resembles the studies that you are about or planning to take. Since it is a blank paper, there are so much possibilities for everyone. The picture may be the same for certain people but the shading, colours will be different and vary from people to people.

You may not know how to draw whatever it is you want to draw. But if you continue to draw the same picture over and over again using a new hand wouldn't you get better at it?

I thought this was just another joke because anyone would have just taken up the pencil and draw whatever it is they wanted because its just a picture that signifies nothing.
My auntie was a teacher so she told me she did the same thing at her school but the response from the younger generation was totally different.

Before they even started to draw, they already lost confidence and refuse to draw because they are not using their writing hand, For those who started drawing, they found new alternatives to the picture by drawing the trunk and tail of the elephant coming out from the tree and saying that the elephant is behind the tree saving the trouble of drawing a full elephant.

The conversation didn't entirely go the whole way as I may have taken it in but I did get the message.

My problem was that I didn't know what picture that I should start drawing. My previous paper was all smashed up (a-level dropout) and I didn't have that feeling of starting a new fresh paper.

So now I encourage you to whoever is reading this.
Find your piece of paper.
Take a different colour or shape of paper if it makes you more comfortable.
Draw whatever it is you want to do.
Do what you want to do.

Because If you like what you do, you will definitely do it everyday and get better at it.
Because if you like to do it, how bad can it be?