Decisions and choices...

Beginning of the year ain't working out so far for me :/

When looking for a place to express myself or feel the need to give advise but I know no one else would acknowledge them, my place to pour out all these feelings are always here.

Throughout the entire time, somehow I always come back here to give myself courage once more. You see we think different at different times of our lives. Maybe when were happy, you think another thing but you definitely most certainly not think the same way if your u happy or feeling angry with something.

And right know I'm feeling very confused. Confused with everything...

 What do you mean confused? Confused with everything you say?

It is the greatest moment of a students life that has no clue what he wants be in the far future. I have always had interest in studying a certain subject. There are many obstacles but how long must I fall to get back up and stand firm with my own 2 feet? Or should I do another sub field and stand proudly but looking down afraid of falling at any moment?

As you all know it, the release of my results hasn't been really bothering me. It is the next step that is a choice that I must make for myself that no one else can do for me. Once the choice is made, I must continue and follow that path until the future awaits. If I'm unsure of what I'm going to do now, the next coming few years will be just misery for me. All my friend seem to have made up their choices but what about me? 

What should I do?

What do I love to do

I actually wanted to enter a certain degree but my results were a wee bit low then the requirements to enter. And before you say anything, yes, I did appeal to the university and they were very strict about accepting students with the exact requirement of the course. So that was definitely off my option. Unless, my parents said if I really wanted to do that degree, I would have to repeat foundation and obtain better results or try apply elsewhere with the current results I have now.

Now if given a choice, I want to stay at my current university. Transportation is not really a problem getting there as there are shuttle bus from my apartment back and forth. The facility is quite and the classes are nice. Food is definitely not a problem and I enjoy studying there. But if my drive for the particular course I want to join is higher, I definitely need to try and apply at elsewhere.

Should solve my problems right?

There's a catch

Most universities out there require an even higher result requirement for me to enter the same specific course that I inquire in my university as well. So the chances of me finding the same course at another university for acceptance with my current results is kinda low. 

Don't you think?

So if my drive is really that high, I would try elsewhere or re enter foundation entirely again with hopes of getting better results and entry again.

Or I could just join the other courses offered at the same results with less interest but hopefully increases as I study more? I don't know...

This is why I am very confused. I don't know what to do. What choice do I have to make?

Before the journey of a thousand step begins, you must first choose in which direction the first step would be.

Now where would the direction of my first step be?

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How has your "new" year come?

Well,

I seem more relaxed then ever now. Nothing much to do. Still giving some thoughts about what should I do next. My results were already out. It wasn't that bad but it wasn't that good either.

Other people were devastated with their results. Some were very happy because they did very well. There were others who wasn't quite happy with their results because it wasn't what they aimed for.

Regardless of what you get, it has already happened. 

You need to move along.

Being sad for the long run ain't gonna do much help. 

You can only be sad until a certain period of time it won't matter anymore. 

"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But from the way I see it, you can either run from it, or.... learn from it"

-Rafiki

It doesn't matter what you did in the past.
What you do now is what that counts.

Don't be sad over something that you have no control of anymore. If you have done your best, there could be possibly other solutions to your current problems. Remember, everyone has problems. It all comes down to how well you manage the problem.

As times goes by, I realize that there any many things in this world that can only be learnt in school. All the others come from experience you must handle first hand. Let it be any small matter in the world from, choosing what you want to eat for a meal, to deciding what career would be your choice.

And all the decisions should come from you because you know yourself the best.

"You must love you"

New year, New you? Or Better you?

Yes, I know this post is very very late and new year was like a few days ago. 

I was moving all over the place so internet sometimes just isn't there for me xD

Anyways,

Happy New Year!!

Let's make this year better and all that.

But honestly this new year, I don't feel so much like celebrating  or anything. Well, I actually never celebrate but I could actually feel the celebration coming from anyone else. It's because of the tragedy of the current floods that is occurring in Malaysia. So instead of celebrating anything, everyone is trying the best to help the victims of the flood.

Anyways, moving on.

So my degree is up next this year, I thought I was so sure of what degree to take next but now I'm suddenly unsure of myself. Its like I suddenly can't decide. 

With what I have gone through in the year 2014, as I said before these, There weren't really much fond memories that I would remember can carry forward for me.

There were many people who unconditionally just threw a small tiny shrapnel into me and being the nice person I am (Hopefully), I just endured it all, knowing that the sooner for it to end, the better so I could just continue.

However, I feel quite different now. I definitely feel relieved because I don't have to deal with all the tension and problems that I faced before but it even bigger obstacle lie ahead

 I feel like I'm being too kind but whatever.
I forgive people easily and I thought I was being too soft. Then again I realized that I don't feel as stressed up as other people who keeps feeling all angry because someone hurt their feelings.

I just move on, looking ahead not thinking about what you did that has left me in scars but what you would do to me in the future that I would avoid

A strong point I guess?
I also found this picture on what
-Naruto has taught me-

Ever since the manga ended along with Sword Art Online 2 anime, I felt like there was nothing to do. I wanted to try pick up another anime but I felt it wouldn't be the same, or perhaps I'm just too bored now.

 Of course, to those who haven't actually read the manga till the end won't actually understand the entire strip but you will get some parts.
I heard  The Last: Naruto The Movie is coming to Malaysia on the 29th Jan on selected cinemas so can't wait to watch it.
Also heard that part 3 of Naruto might be continued? featuring his son and such. oops (spoiler)

Guess that is it for this very late Happy New Year Post.
Remember Guys!

You live a life that none has gone through so it is up to you to live it as the way you should.