When you start to take things slowly..

It is amazing how clear my mind becomes when I am just sitting blankly in a quiet environment thinking about things that happened in life all around me that makes me appreciate all the things that happen to me be it good or bad.
The only reason why my mind is thinking more frequently this way and why I am currently updating and writing this post is because I'm far away from my laptop (where I will always be mapling or some other stuff than updating this blog) and currently using a tablet with a wireless keyboard making use of free time other than browsing youtube or the web. Mobile games tend to turn me off at some point due to the high power usage and using a tablet that has no data is quite hard maintain constant playtime back home.

Hope everyone is doing well. Currently spending my sem break holiday overseas. However, this is one of the holidays where I feel like don't deserve it due to some studies problem and others. Like I know I should learn from my mistakes and everything but it doesn't change that feeling of worthlessness that I have. When you actually put in so much effort and time only to see all of it go to waste for nothing. I am very grateful for the support of my close family that really encourage me but my mind always wanders off..
What about my friends?
What about my future?
What will the seniors and juniors say?

I always convince myself to always put the thoughts of myself first before thinking about what other people would say. I can control what I think but not others. But it is still very hard and painful to listen to demotivating words or thoughts that may not be even conveyed  properly.

Some people say you need to be happy with yourself before you be happy with anyone else. Spent time with yourself first before opening yourself up to people.
But why does it feel so hard for me to do that?
Should probably learn to tackle this problem in the future...

Since I have a couple of free time away from my laptop and unable to play any games that take up most of my time, I would probably to try post something again soon. I recently saw How to train your dragon The hidden world and Alita Battle Angel so maybe I could write my own reviews on them but the movie might not be showing anymore in cinemas  xD.

I guess thats it for now

Till next time, CryZ

There really is so many things to learn

You know, the more I progress on into the semester and ongoing continuous learning, I feel like there are truly so many things that I do not know. From simple to complicated, I feel like that life is such a continuous journey of constantly learning until the day we breath our last.

Even at old age where we start to develop diseases that may cause memory lost. We still need to relearn the things that we already learnt before.

Thinking of such things sometimes gets me a little depressed.....

Cause eventually in the end, everything will be for naught. You will just be forgotten unless you really make your mark in the society and I don't think I can go that far.
Somehow I think back of the things I should have done like a normal person. Studying, being a good human being overall, etc etc....
And I feel like if I don't experience them now, it might be too late later on when I'm working. That is IF I'm working. And when I'm working, Will I have time? By then I'll probably have a family and need to work hard to support them....
So sometimes, I really don't feel that bad just taking a day to do whatever I feel like doing regardless of how childish,expensive,impulsive it may be. Cause if I don't do it, I'll never experience it. If I don't push myself, I'll never get to enjoy the life we only experience once.

The Semester has begun~

Heeeeeyy~!

Yes, It is a miracle that I'm actually posting even when I said I would posting.

The new semester has commenced and I am another step closer towards graduation hopefully. With more and more new things to learn everyday with more work and assignments coming in, I should be happy to be busy once more so that I won't feel bored. As I mentioned previously, I did an internship at a pharmaceutical plant Kotra Pharma at Melaka during the semester break as part of the another module that I currently have this semester.

Basically it was another module during the semester break to simplify things.

I have learnt a lot of things, met a lot of people, and most importantly open my eyes towards the working world which I will be heading out to in a few years time. There are plenty of things that I would love to share about in my internship but I'll leave it to another post if I have the time (or remember to share it)

No, instead today I would just like to say what is on my mind as I enter back university and doing my Final Year Project and meeting back my classmates that I "should" have known for already 3 years.

Now being at internship has already opened my mind towards many people, different cultures, different language, etc etc.
I have to admit that there were a few language barriers everywhere you go, It is unavoidable. Like perhaps if you are with a group that only converse in another language that you don't understand. I had this problem ever since Foundation and it has dragged on now till the point where I don't bother anymore. They are simply just more comfortable in their group that it makes it very uncomfortable when other people attempt to join or hang out together as a class or a group.

But at the internship, regardless of whether there was any language barrier, they would always return back to a common language to explain everything which is English.
This opened my eyes as not every group of people is the same. Of course I don't have a choice now as the batch is the same throughout your study years and University but it won't be the same in working life.
Sure you might get the same people in working life but you have the option to mingle with people from other departments or perhaps after gathering enough working experience, you could job hunt to another company to expand your circle.
It has opened my mind to not only think of what I have to face but more to what will I have to face more in the future.

Sorry for such a out of topic random post that I gathered my thoughts on. I will try to resume my other usual post or another random post if I have the time.
Oh, Equalizer 2 is coming out next week.
I got something to look forward to 😃