When you start to take things slowly..

It is amazing how clear my mind becomes when I am just sitting blankly in a quiet environment thinking about things that happened in life all around me that makes me appreciate all the things that happen to me be it good or bad.
The only reason why my mind is thinking more frequently this way and why I am currently updating and writing this post is because I'm far away from my laptop (where I will always be mapling or some other stuff than updating this blog) and currently using a tablet with a wireless keyboard making use of free time other than browsing youtube or the web. Mobile games tend to turn me off at some point due to the high power usage and using a tablet that has no data is quite hard maintain constant playtime back home.

Hope everyone is doing well. Currently spending my sem break holiday overseas. However, this is one of the holidays where I feel like don't deserve it due to some studies problem and others. Like I know I should learn from my mistakes and everything but it doesn't change that feeling of worthlessness that I have. When you actually put in so much effort and time only to see all of it go to waste for nothing. I am very grateful for the support of my close family that really encourage me but my mind always wanders off..
What about my friends?
What about my future?
What will the seniors and juniors say?

I always convince myself to always put the thoughts of myself first before thinking about what other people would say. I can control what I think but not others. But it is still very hard and painful to listen to demotivating words or thoughts that may not be even conveyed  properly.

Some people say you need to be happy with yourself before you be happy with anyone else. Spent time with yourself first before opening yourself up to people.
But why does it feel so hard for me to do that?
Should probably learn to tackle this problem in the future...

Since I have a couple of free time away from my laptop and unable to play any games that take up most of my time, I would probably to try post something again soon. I recently saw How to train your dragon The hidden world and Alita Battle Angel so maybe I could write my own reviews on them but the movie might not be showing anymore in cinemas  xD.

I guess thats it for now

Till next time, CryZ

There really is so many things to learn

You know, the more I progress on into the semester and ongoing continuous learning, I feel like there are truly so many things that I do not know. From simple to complicated, I feel like that life is such a continuous journey of constantly learning until the day we breath our last.

Even at old age where we start to develop diseases that may cause memory lost. We still need to relearn the things that we already learnt before.

Thinking of such things sometimes gets me a little depressed.....

Cause eventually in the end, everything will be for naught. You will just be forgotten unless you really make your mark in the society and I don't think I can go that far.
Somehow I think back of the things I should have done like a normal person. Studying, being a good human being overall, etc etc....
And I feel like if I don't experience them now, it might be too late later on when I'm working. That is IF I'm working. And when I'm working, Will I have time? By then I'll probably have a family and need to work hard to support them....
So sometimes, I really don't feel that bad just taking a day to do whatever I feel like doing regardless of how childish,expensive,impulsive it may be. Cause if I don't do it, I'll never experience it. If I don't push myself, I'll never get to enjoy the life we only experience once.

The Semester has begun~

Heeeeeyy~!

Yes, It is a miracle that I'm actually posting even when I said I would posting.

The new semester has commenced and I am another step closer towards graduation hopefully. With more and more new things to learn everyday with more work and assignments coming in, I should be happy to be busy once more so that I won't feel bored. As I mentioned previously, I did an internship at a pharmaceutical plant Kotra Pharma at Melaka during the semester break as part of the another module that I currently have this semester.

Basically it was another module during the semester break to simplify things.

I have learnt a lot of things, met a lot of people, and most importantly open my eyes towards the working world which I will be heading out to in a few years time. There are plenty of things that I would love to share about in my internship but I'll leave it to another post if I have the time (or remember to share it)

No, instead today I would just like to say what is on my mind as I enter back university and doing my Final Year Project and meeting back my classmates that I "should" have known for already 3 years.

Now being at internship has already opened my mind towards many people, different cultures, different language, etc etc.
I have to admit that there were a few language barriers everywhere you go, It is unavoidable. Like perhaps if you are with a group that only converse in another language that you don't understand. I had this problem ever since Foundation and it has dragged on now till the point where I don't bother anymore. They are simply just more comfortable in their group that it makes it very uncomfortable when other people attempt to join or hang out together as a class or a group.

But at the internship, regardless of whether there was any language barrier, they would always return back to a common language to explain everything which is English.
This opened my eyes as not every group of people is the same. Of course I don't have a choice now as the batch is the same throughout your study years and University but it won't be the same in working life.
Sure you might get the same people in working life but you have the option to mingle with people from other departments or perhaps after gathering enough working experience, you could job hunt to another company to expand your circle.
It has opened my mind to not only think of what I have to face but more to what will I have to face more in the future.

Sorry for such a out of topic random post that I gathered my thoughts on. I will try to resume my other usual post or another random post if I have the time.
Oh, Equalizer 2 is coming out next week.
I got something to look forward to 😃

Commencement of a new semester

Harrow everybodeh.

Been a while since I said anything about myself. 

Occupied to the brim now since my semester just started again. Funny how the 1 month of sem break pass by so fast?

I was about to go on and on about something that most people won't probably bother reading so yeah.

New Semester as started over the past couple of weeks.
It has been hectic as ever with new stuff to learn as well as assignment and reports to hand in.
I tried everything I could for them to realize what they are doing but it seems to bare no fruits of effort. Still gullible and ignorant of the indirect message I have tried telling them.

But who am I to say anything right?
It is up to them that determines their action and not me.
I can't control their actions but I can control what I feel and act.

I have learnt so much that I feel as though there are so many things to learn everyday.
"The only time we stop learning is when we are no longer breathing"

Can't seem to remember who said that but it sort of came to my mind when I was thinking about all this.
Of course the most I learn is the people that you mix around with. I'm always the people kinda guy you know? Always like to see a smile on someones face, or maybe even a laugh.
But I don't like it when you are being very inconsiderate. There are limits of course but I'm not sure how long I can take it anymore.
Perhaps this is just how uni life works?
Every person for themselves?
I know it's just small small things but in the end it piles up together to form such a huge mountain of things that keep bugging me that I lost sight of what is really important.

Me

I'm better then that.
If I am feeling those now, I will ensure it will never happen to the people close to me.
Be it friends or family, or anyone else that I have known.

You are worth more then that
Remember that the next time you feel alone or down against the whole world

Sports Day S.O.P.

Sports Day!

Whuuuu

It was really a fun event, not to mention healthy as well xD

The participants were divided into groups of 4. The 4 colors, blue green yellow and red. We were told to wear the colour of our house to be easily distinguished but for those who didn't, small colour papers with pins were provided to be pin at the sleeves.

There were multiple events which would help you gather points for your house to compete for the grand prize of medals. Huhu

(Sounds like hogwarts)

The number of people that turned up was not such a bad amount. However, for the house I was in apparently (blue) there were less people compared to the other houses.

But that did not stop our sportsmanship conquest to get at least 3rd place!

There were few number of activity that started with a marathon run which was around 2km run around the campus. Points were given differently from 1st to 3rd, 4th to 10th and 10th till respectively. So being present and running actually does contribute to your points alrdy.

As I was running in, they didn't really tell your position as you finish, but I heard someone saying I was the 14th.

Better then nothing I suppose? I didn't really jogged for the past few months xD

If I were though, I would be happy being the top 10th

Lunch, breakfast and constant supply of water were provided through the event. Multiple committee members were also there to assist in any form of injury of miscommunication .

Next up was captain ball!

Please forgive me if the picture doesn't match up xD. I can't really be playing and taking pictures at the same time can I?

So captain ball will quite similar to netball but was changed a little. Instead of shooting through hoops. A member of your team (captain) will be standing on a chair and will act as the goal post. So passing the ball to him will score you a point in the match.

When you grab the ball, you can only pass to your team and cannot move.

So it is quite simple, but team got destroyed xD

Even more so during the next event which was dodgeball.

I think dodgeball is pretty universal and everyone knows what it is?

It basically starts with everyone at their lines, running forward to get their balls in the middle lines. Any ball that hits you in your court and you are eliminated.

However, any ball that touches the ground before you is a dead ball and won't eliminate you. If you manage to catch a ball, the person who threw it is out and 1 of your friend gets to come back in.

The problem with my team was,

1. I sprain my ankle last week so I can't really just run in saying YOLOOOOO

2. The amount of guys in my house were little lowere compared to the other houses.

3. The lecturers on my house was outnumbered @.@

Nevertheless, it was very fun and entertaining.

There were a few other games that my house rent other team such as the station games. The multiple legged race timings, wrapping you're mummy friend and carrying it to the other sides, and the a balloon stepping game thingy?

And the last activity was running man which I'm sure most of you know as well.

Divided into seeker and hunter.

Seeker will hunt for 7 items in a location. 5 hunters will be released first followed by the remainder of the team after 10 minutes. All hunters will have to find 1 item in the location as well before starting to hunt the seeker by tearing off their name tag placed behind them. Hunters will also be given bells to be tied at their legs nice they start hunting so seekers can actually hear them before coming.

So the game end when all 7 items have been retrieved by the seeker or the hunter has caught all of the seekers

And I was the MVP! XD

Well not really.

I was just the last person to get the last item while the hunters were hunting. There will be a small zones where the seeker will be safe from the hunter as the seeker turns in the item they found.

My team was communicating via whatsapp so we could tell who was caught and who wasn't.

The last item was held by this rock apparently within our sights and we still didn't notice it. It was so scary when I was running during the hunt.

It was literally like a horror game where I could hear so many bells ringing across the corridor and then I suddenly see a figure at the stairs not moving and all the bell sound suddenly stopped. He took 1 step down and I heard a bell ringing.

And I ran for mah life xD

Sadly, my house was the last placing due to excessive losses on captain ball and dodge ball. Hahaha. And by reduced amount of members, we were outpoints even in marathon runs. Not to mention the top 10s were majority NOT my team xD

But it was a fun event.

Fun and healthy =P

My body is still aching from this event. I seriously did a lot this day hahaha

Every team was given goodie packs I suppose?

And eventhough I didn't win any medals, I did manage to enjoy the entire morning and afternoon. I may not have a medal but I do have memories :D

Till next time, have a great day.

Where the winds of a New Beginnings Blow

Tiresome week.

But at least now I have something to do or something to look forward to everyday.

After 8 months of repeatedly saying I have nothing to do, I actually can't wait for the assignments or references to come in.

Occasionally I still say I would have time for games and all but I know all of that will have to come to an end soon as more work is piling up lateron.

Funny, the more we know we won't be able to have it, the more we learn to appreciate it. During that 8 months of continuous gaming, I felt as though it would have been better for me doing something else. Now with my degree starting, it seems like the playing time has become so precious.

 The class is kinda huge.
I'm sure this would be a great opportunity to meet more people and so on.
etc etc....

But I guess I have been away from people for so long that it kinda feels really weird when I approach anyone.
There's just this weird feeling that deep down I'm scared to get hurt again.
That I would be better off all by myself again.
But how long can this go on?

Not everyone is the same.
How would you know how good the movie is before watching it? Let alone if you just read the reviews. The only way is to experience it yourself before going through any necessary feedback.

Who knows maybe this time I would be able to find close friends?

Hopefully I'll have more time to spend here as I slowly thin down my time on games.