Even only I could start back at the beginning...

You know, i think most of us would gladly turn time again to correct all our mistakes in the past. From doing wrong in exams till now or the last time you don't listen to your parents.

Everybody makes Mistakes.

We are humans.

Stop thinking about the past~! I know it may hurt. I know you did lots of mistakes.

But know to learn from your mistakes~! Even in your studies when you wrongly answer the question. You take it as a lesson and don't repeat it again!

I know i have did something wrong. I just don't know WHAT either. I seriously have nothing else to do. I'm still feeling so down. Words by other people are not helping me.

Even my friends are acting strange.

It's like the whole world is out to get me.

Now i'm asking you.

"I want the start a whole new beginning with you"

Don't look at the past,

Look into the present.

Think of the future,

Bright place in the picture.

Don't fret over your mistakes,

Learn and forget the mistakes.

All i'm asking from you is another chance to start all over again.

I'm helpless am I?

Learn to accept the Truth

So, lately i have been going through some serious problems which i finally found what it is.

Yesterday, i faced my greatest fear. I decided to take a step further in an attempt to solve the problem or make the problem worse.

No matter what the answer was, i wanted the Truth.

Even if it was hard to bear the answer.

The Truth hurts, but Lies are worse.

And Sadly, my problem got worse too.

I was Speechless.

There was nothing else better to say but to keep telling myself to stay strong....

I need to accept the truth that my time to come is a long more way to go.

I need to stop thinking about this.

I need to change.

There are much more better things in the world.

There are much more flowers.

Bu there is only 1 Life you have

Don't Waste it.

Live life to the fullest

Don't let your emotions take hold of you...

Emotion is a very strong weapon.

It can be used as a motivation that drives you further.

But it can also be time-bomb ready to explode.

Take hold of your emotions.

Don't give into your mind.

Fight back.

All your friends will be there for you...

"You are not Alone"

Strange.....

And so, the problem continues 2day...

Starts off with being confused :/

I seriously hate problems like this cause there seem to be no solution to my problem. I keep telling myself that every problem has a solution.

I kept thinking and thinking and thinking.... until finally my answer was found 2day at school.

The best start is that i finally found out my problem. Or is it even mine?

Its my Nerve sending impulses to my brain about "Emotions"

You know? "eMo"?

>_>

I seriously have no idea what else to say. When i get straight to the point. She gives me this "Nope, there's nothing wrong" face and what she does after that totally says "YES THERE IS A PROBLEM YOU IDIOT"

My head is so banged up with mixed emotions that i can barely even say it =='. What can I do? I can even't get near her to talk too. I could slowly wait it out, though i doubt my head can take another week or so.

And also 2day when school period ended, there was a heavy rain. This even made me more sad and depressed remembering the song by Bruno Mars~

"It Will Rain"

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
To keep you by my side
To keep you from walkin' out the door.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Ooh, if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin' "There goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy"

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Ooh, but little by little watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Oh, don't you say (don't you say) goodbye (goodbye),
Don't you say (don't you say) goodbye (goodbye)
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain