Friday, July 29, 2022

To My Fellow PRPs in my journey in HTJS

 As of typing this, it is 29/7/2022 after spending the day taking photos and catching up with most of y'all at the hospital and after work in KFC.

I reflected among all of our time together in HTJS and decided to reminisce back together the times I have spent with each of you down memory lane after spending 1 year, 3 months and 24 days together.

Starting off after tagging in Inpatient and Outpatient, I was thrown into Methadone clinic. I did panic as there was no one to guide me on the first day but luckily

Nur Farhana 

Thank you for guiding me and referring me to our senior at that time, kak Ain. Remembering that time, I was so stress because just started work and got working colleagues friendly and helping out. Syukur sangat. Fast forward a few months and it was just you and me in PRIC. Weyh ingat x time tu query datang belambak sampai kita take turn ambik phone. Doctor pun dah cam suara kita. The minute 1 of us kena oncall nangis yang lagi satu. hahaha.

After that was thrown into Inpatient, get to know more of you guys, familiarize with all of you and work with each other especially during covid period and the medications can get out of hand especially during indent days.

Dashini, Husna, Luqman, Xue Ling, Aziera, Iskhandar, Qi Ying, (Joe)

I was not close to everyone yet la this time (forgive me if i spelt your name wrong xD)

Mohamad Iskandar

Thank you for being a good friend especially during oncalls where you would pickup and respond almost immediately. Masa time Methadone floaters time tu, memang banyak jugak la berubah sikit. Dapat la orang cover.

Lee Kong (Joe)

I'm not sure if you still remember, but we were quite close especially in IPD and OPD when we were group mates for our research. I can tell you it was quite a "specific" pairing. But jokes aside. I hope you are happy with where you are now.

After 2 weeks and the 4 weeks PRPs move out to other departments, I got slightly closer with others.

Suhaila Hanis

First time working with you kat IPD, felt like it was someone that I could actually talk and understand certain situations (Not sure kalau you ingat lagi) Lebih lagi bila time clinical few months after tu. Rase macam memang boleh faham.

Siti Hawa

Will forever remember you due to the times we had in IVDD (Ingat x masa  tally first time. Havoc. Turun logistics sampai 2 kali) But always finish on time and cover for each other. Inexperiences caused us to take ward yang besar2, Lepas tu tahu2 la ape yang berlaku haha

After that, Moved on to TDM where once again I was isolated from almost everyone. Going to wards and giving out appointments, learning and studying with senior. It was a quite the experience since that time TDM was downstairs next to TPN/CDR. Calculations were all done down stairs (Sorry Puan Farah kalau selalu buat silap pengiraan time tu xD) Then it was time to move to logistics.

Logistics was one of the times were I started to be really close with PRPs because of the free time and the amount of time we spent together especially when just sitting side by side or just reading up on logistics guidelines.

A'qilah Idayu

This was the time I truely got to know you with all your perks and interest. My god bende kita cakap kat logistics tu I ingat lagi. Lebih2 lagi dengan Angeline and Kalai. Don't forget tentang yang makan kat bawah pohon tu. Masih ingat lagi.

4 weeks pass by and now back in Outpatient. I was so anxious masuk balik expecialy bila dah terlupa location medication. I don't think I remember much that happened in OPD other then that I was really tired and instantly knocked out when I get back home.

Lee Kah Wei (Cynthia)

I think this was when I really got to know you and your colours ( for the better not for the worst) Gossiping with you halfway when doing fillings was 1 of the small "stress" relief especially when sometimes there was sharks.

Erlenda Julia

This was the time I got to know you more as well. I still remember during clinical when I jumpe you kat Taman and we discussed regarding semua bende clinical. Time tu memang stress ar. Tapi sekarang dah jadi mummy dah. All the best yeah.

Ng Xian-Zhuang (Daryl)

Mah boy is where I met and worked with you at OPD. Still remember giving you a heart attack when I said clobazam was not tally xD. Even fixed my medication error of unasyn. Always got me covered. Thanks for being there and being your usual self. Brightens up my day whenever I talk to you ahaha.

Iz Mohd Zaim

Daripada time kat OPD lagi masih ingat you. Selalu ditolong. Pagi yang panggil saya sebab DD pun saya masih ingat ahaha. Ketua yang paling mantap. Beruntung dapat berkenalan dengan you.

I proceeded to spend the remaining weeks all in OPD so It went by quite fast and unnoticeably because well, work, sleep and repeat daily as well as weekly logbook report. And before you know it, I was already in Manufact.

Hong Xue Ling

My sifu in IPD and in Manufact. Thank you for being there especially during the first time in IPD where we had our small small talks in between breaks. Manufact has also brought us closer when you guide me and Fatin on the workflow and technique of extempt. When you found out the next department was clinical, I still remember you thinking how you were going to get through it and i understood that feeling when it was my turn haha.

Fatin Najiha

Time ni la baru kenal kat manufact bila Xue Ling ajar kita. Thank you for being patient with me (especially the time when I mintak off and you tinggal seorang XD). Sekarang bila dah float TDM dah pro clinical daaaah kah kah kah.

Manisha

Looking back, Manufact was the same time I actually worked together with you and Husna and you were coming in from IPD. Thank you for being chat buddies with me especially when we walk back together during floating and our same parking spot haha.

Siti Najihah

Bende yang I paling ingat the first time kita kerja sama kat Manufact is when we were talking about cerita hantu mase kita buat indent ward. Dengan video pelik2 kita tengok kat youtube. Time ni la i kenal you bace macam2 manhwa dengan manga semua. Dengan you punye gadget watch and phone. Kelakar jugak la bila fikir balik

Nurfikriah Husna

Time you masuk Manufact was a bit of a shock la time tu. You know the reason, I don't need to repeat it. But I learnt alot from you especially when you mentioned "I know my own pace" Faham2 je la. Thank you.

Waaa lepas tu. Masuk Clinical. Otak semua Jam. Don't know what to do. Lucky got everyone to those that were in clinical that helped. ESPECIALLY THE WHATSAPP GROUP (Clinical Newbies omg)

Nurul Aqilah

Everyday jumpe kat library. Lepas tu x dapat cari PCI xD. Ingat lagi time stress buat clinical presentation dengan cari requirement. Query semua dapat dijawab sekarang. Time ni la I paling ingat you.

Choong Qi Ying

I somehow remember you more in clinical then in IPD because I would ask you soo many clinical workflow and things that I only remember you in clinical xD. But now you were already IPD geng. Ah now I remember, I was with you during your last 2 weeks of PRIC and my last 2 weeks rotation of PRIC also before we started to float. 4 PRPS in PRICs hahaha.

After clinical, finally worked with Farhana back in PRIC. A lot of query came in and lots of work but we managed to get it done. Not to mention critical appraisal, CME presentation as well as research project. Fast forward 2 weeks and passed over to Dashini and Husna, It was time to move on to TPN/CDR

Nurul Aziera

TPN geng yang masuk dengan I tapi tinggal I seorang hari pertama dengan pegawai yang entah la. Tahu je la. Malas nak cakap tentang dia. Setiap kali fikir balik rase geram. Nak buat kerja lebih bilik tu xde orang. Tapi untung la. Mase time tu mase petang pegawai free. Boleh ajar banyak2. X tahu la you ingat semua yang dia ajar hehe. Thank you mase time kat TPN/CDR.

After finishing IPD, It was time to complete back clinical rotation. This was the highlight and peak stress of my entire PRP rotation as almost everyone was in clinical and OPD kept SOS-ing us and there goes our time to do our logbook requirements. Still remember the extra hours I had to put in the weekends just to come to wards to clerk cases as well as medication history all for the log book requirements.

As for the others, I don't remember anything specifically looking back at the Jadual Penempatan bulanan so I will try to remember the first thing that comes to mind.

Dashini

I think remember passing over PRIC to you as when you entered, there was no senior PRP in that department. I remember working with you in OPD and receiving clinical knowledge from you when I was in manufact as that time you were still in clinical rotation and finishing it off straight before coming to Manufact for your "cuti"

Kristen Lim Yeung Lyn

Honestly, I can't recall the moments that I worked with you (maybe probably oncall ) But I will definitely remember your black leather boots. Your one distinctive feature that I will never forget. After floating began with 3 months buffer after PRP finish, I only remember the touch-and-go times we meet on break and off work whenever you are not in OPD.

Ika Syafiqah

Yang I ingat mase time first time tagging ke WCC, you, me and Athirah nervous gila ikut Senior PRP Jaya pergi buat postnatal counselling. Padahal sekarang boleh je buat. Kita bercakap pun semua tentang kerja je haha.

Nur Athirah

Yes, same with Ika, is what I only remembered. mase time tagging ke WCC untuk post natal counselling. Ingat lagi you cakap bila counselling tu macam robot sebab kena cepat. banyak patient. Bila senior PRP bagi peluang nak counsel, x berani. Semua takut hahaha.

Aisyah Afiqah

Tak ingat mase time kita pernah bekerja sesama. Kalau ade pun mungkin banyak sangat PRP yang lain. Kalau ade pun mungkin masa time kat OPD bila sibuk buat filling bakul dan x sempat berkenalan hehehe.

Nur Azyan

Thank you masa time repond kat logistic tentang harga antibiotic ahaha. Time tu tengah buat buletin comparison harga. Senang la sikit kerja daripada turun logistics hanye untuk dapatkan info tu. Thank you byk2. Float kat WCC ade jugak i tolong syringe buatkan alprostadil xD

Yap Wei Ling

Once again, I don't have much memory of working together with you but I do remember when I started floating in OPD for 2 weeks, you helped me alot in VAS/KVAS by sending me things to read and how to handle the counter. Thank you soo much.

Tan Yu Xin

I remember very clearly working with you at OPD and you were complaining that you had IPD oncall even before entering IPD rotation. It was soo funny. Then with a certain case that I helped you and supported you as well. Hopefully you don't get it again la. Thank you for all your help last time. Eventhough after floating we don't talk much already since you are stuck in OPD.

Adrina

Aaaaah x ingat jugak the first time started working with you. The most clear memory of me was when you was in clinical and you were telling about your ward rounds and doctors. Then you would give your advise on how to do clinical rotation as you started your clinical rotation first ahaha.

Luqman

Ketua Floating kat Manufact! Ni yang I ingat ahaha. Sebelum ni macam x pernah ingat bekerja sesama kecuali yang mase time tagging kat IPD awal dan ingat you masuk clinical dulu sebelum saya. Lepas tu yang ingat semua masa time floating. Untung la dapat TPN sebelah manufact  department you hehe.

Muhammad Amirul Adli

Big Boss TPN. I rase i x pernah kot kerja dengan you sebelum floating. Yang I ingat mase time clinical kita masuk ward yang same la untuk 2 minggu. Berebut semua requirement dengan jadual SOS pun you kena buat ahha. Terima Kasih tunjuk ajar kat TPN/CDR lepas sebulan float masuk lambat ahaha.


All in all. I just want to say Thank you for being with me through PRP in HTJS. It may not be the first choice for most of all of you, but I'm glad we met. Through the ups and downs, you guys have made it much more bearable and enjoyable through my PRP life in HTJS.

It was exciting and quite enjoyable going around the hospital taking photos and talking after so long especially in different departments. Eating afterwards at KFC also was very enjoyable while we talk about everything before we meet again on Monday for our placements.

Thank you everyone for everything through this journey.

P.S. I actually cried abit otw back from KFC after everything because it truly does feel like we won't be able to see each other all together for a very long time.

Monday, September 9, 2019

Weathering with you / 天気の子 Thoughts...

So recently I went to watch one of my highly anticipated anime movie since it was released in Japan few months back and was finally showing in the nearby cinemas on 9th September.

Weathering with you / 天気の子 directed by Makoto Shinkai

As I was sort of late to the hype train of the previous film of Your name / 君の名は。, I still enjoyed the movie very much and proceeded to bawl my eyes out in certain scenes especially with the accompanying music played by Radwimps that made the scenes even more enjoyable and emotional. I'll get more into the films in another post so that I can keep this post spoiler free as the film is just only recently was released and I don't want to upset those who want to watch the movie totally spoiler-free.

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This is the story...only she and I knew about
If you have already watched the trailer of the movie, you would basically know the basic plot line of the movie.
"A high-school teenage boy runs away from his home to Tokyo that is constantly raining and meets with a mysterious girl that is able to control the weather"
I'll try my best to talk about the movie without giving any spoilers away.

First off, the visuals and animation of this movie is just the best.
There is nothing more to describe it than being absolutely beautiful and eyegasm to watch. Every sing time the weather changes from raining to being clear while blue sky or cloudy evening with the sun in the background just reminds me the joy of watching anime. I would say that the animation of this movie beats out all of Makoto Shinkai's previous work including Your name / 君の名は。. I actually grinning from one side to another when there was a 180° rotation pan from facing the character until behind where you can beautifully see the background weather with the characters.
I still remember the scene so beautifully that I still get small goosebumps when I listen to the music which brings me to my next point.

The music is entirely composed by Radwimps again making the movie even more enjoyable to watch.
However, I would say the music for Your name does a better job of making each and every scene unique, relating more with the song. Don't get me wrong, I still can relate each song for Weathering with you with different scenes but not as much as Your name. Maybe the fact that I have watched Your name almost a dozen times compared to the few times I have watched Weathering with you could have something to do with it. but regardless, the soundtrack and music is still very much like a Radwimps song and makes the film even better than it is.

Taking a step down, I'm gonna talk regarding the plot a little while avoiding spoiler territory.
I would say the plot of this anime movie is very simple and direct. It does follow the same story trope of Your name. However, there was less gut punching moments or waterfall tears compared to Your name. This was a nice turn of experience, at least for me, as the film went to a little lighter zone but did showcase some of the dark zones but not as much. Many people or reviews (that I have found after crazily looking around of this movie) that I found say that the plot is just not that interesting or predictable soo much that it just doesn't bring the movie up as great as Your name. If you have watched Your name, it is only reasonable to think that this movie is going to be better. My advise is to just watch the movie as it is to truly enjoy it. Don't compare the movies as each movie shines in different areas. I can't wait for Makoto Shinkai's next work if he ever starts another project in the far future.

I think that is all from me. My mind is still boggled from watching the anime film. From the music and visual aspects, it definitely wouldn't bother me if I watch it again multiple times in the cinema.

Hopefully you enjoy the movie if you are planning to watch it.

Sunday, February 17, 2019

When you start to take things slowly..

It is amazing how clear my mind becomes when I am just sitting blankly in a quiet environment thinking about things that happened in life all around me that makes me appreciate all the things that happen to me be it good or bad.
The only reason why my mind is thinking more frequently this way and why I am currently updating and writing this post is because I'm far away from my laptop (where I will always be mapling or some other stuff than updating this blog) and currently using a tablet with a wireless keyboard making use of free time other than browsing youtube or the web. Mobile games tend to turn me off at some point due to the high power usage and using a tablet that has no data is quite hard maintain constant playtime back home.

Hope everyone is doing well. Currently spending my sem break holiday overseas. However, this is one of the holidays where I feel like don't deserve it due to some studies problem and others. Like I know I should learn from my mistakes and everything but it doesn't change that feeling of worthlessness that I have. When you actually put in so much effort and time only to see all of it go to waste for nothing. I am very grateful for the support of my close family that really encourage me but my mind always wanders off..
What about my friends?
What about my future?
What will the seniors and juniors say?



I always convince myself to always put the thoughts of myself first before thinking about what other people would say. I can control what I think but not others. But it is still very hard and painful to listen to demotivating words or thoughts that may not be even conveyed  properly.

Some people say you need to be happy with yourself before you be happy with anyone else. Spent time with yourself first before opening yourself up to people.
But why does it feel so hard for me to do that?
Should probably learn to tackle this problem in the future...

Since I have a couple of free time away from my laptop and unable to play any games that take up most of my time, I would probably to try post something again soon. I recently saw How to train your dragon The hidden world and Alita Battle Angel so maybe I could write my own reviews on them but the movie might not be showing anymore in cinemas  xD.

I guess thats it for now

Till next time, CryZ