Learn to accept the Truth

So, lately i have been going through some serious problems which i finally found what it is.

Yesterday, i faced my greatest fear. I decided to take a step further in an attempt to solve the problem or make the problem worse.

No matter what the answer was, i wanted the Truth.

Even if it was hard to bear the answer.

The Truth hurts, but Lies are worse.

And Sadly, my problem got worse too.

I was Speechless.

There was nothing else better to say but to keep telling myself to stay strong....

I need to accept the truth that my time to come is a long more way to go.

I need to stop thinking about this.

I need to change.

There are much more better things in the world.

There are much more flowers.

Bu there is only 1 Life you have

Don't Waste it.

Live life to the fullest

Don't let your emotions take hold of you...

Emotion is a very strong weapon.

It can be used as a motivation that drives you further.

But it can also be time-bomb ready to explode.

Take hold of your emotions.

Don't give into your mind.

Fight back.

All your friends will be there for you...

"You are not Alone"

Strange.....

And so, the problem continues 2day...

Starts off with being confused :/

I seriously hate problems like this cause there seem to be no solution to my problem. I keep telling myself that every problem has a solution.

I kept thinking and thinking and thinking.... until finally my answer was found 2day at school.

The best start is that i finally found out my problem. Or is it even mine?

Its my Nerve sending impulses to my brain about "Emotions"

You know? "eMo"?

>_>

I seriously have no idea what else to say. When i get straight to the point. She gives me this "Nope, there's nothing wrong" face and what she does after that totally says "YES THERE IS A PROBLEM YOU IDIOT"

My head is so banged up with mixed emotions that i can barely even say it =='. What can I do? I can even't get near her to talk too. I could slowly wait it out, though i doubt my head can take another week or so.

And also 2day when school period ended, there was a heavy rain. This even made me more sad and depressed remembering the song by Bruno Mars~

"It Will Rain"

If you ever leave me, baby,
Leave some morphine at my door
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.

There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
To keep you by my side
To keep you from walkin' out the door.

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Ooh, if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin' "There goes my little girl
Walkin' with that troublesome guy"

But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Ooh, but little by little watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Oh, don't you say (don't you say) goodbye (goodbye),
Don't you say (don't you say) goodbye (goodbye)
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make it right

'Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it'll rain, rain, ra-a-a-ain

Everyday It'll Rain~ T^T

I have no idea what has gotten into me lately. Anything i do takes my mind off for a while be4 i start glooming around again. I have seriously NO IDEA what is happening :/

But hey, I'm guessing everyone goes through this yes? Let it be from our Grandparents to our Parents. Everyone has gone though it. The only difference is that this time i'm facing it alone >_>

And forgive me for not posting anything interesting for the past few days. With the condition i'm in, Its kinda hard to upload pics and blog about MapleStory and stuff. I have no idea i'll reach lv 121 in time be4 the event finishes onot.

Frankly speaking, i DON'T think i have enough time since i have my monthly test coming this Thursday. All the more reason i should clear this problem out of my head as it will make things worse and effect my future (Sounds like experiment, lawl)

Maybe i'll blog more again but not about MapleStory, Maybe more about movies i watched recently, anything interesting happening in school. If you want to know my opinion about other topics, just let me know~! :D

I probably have to go shower and have a snack be4 i start my revision. Hopefully that takes my mind out of such problem which i don't even know what is the problem.

"I have a problem which i don't know what is"