Learn to know what your limits

Hey~!

It's been quite a while. I'm sitting for my class test this week so I've been kinda busy. Hahaha

Well enough about that, and more about what I'm about to say

Lately I had lots of assignments and stuff. Usually you'll be selected in a group with certain people. Since the lecturer is organizing your group members, you have to get along of each and every member because your given no choice and you have to present as a group but sometimes this really gets on my nerves so I thought I'll talk about it.

At first, I thought I could just do everything then just give them the presentation and they would only need present. Of course, not everything can be done by 1 person so I thought I could try to get along with all of members and hopefully this would lead to a more closer relationship with my classmates and so on. The fact that I cannot accept is that some people are just not honest at ALL.

 Well this is a little over. Not really saying that they are cheap people but Honesty is a very expensive gift as not many people really do give their honesty at certain times.
Especially since I have entered Foundation, I learnt that everyone has a double sided face that is only shown when your together with them for a certain period of time or when doing group work together. Being who I am, I don't usually go around messing with people's lives and saying that particular person a jerk or something. I keep it to myself so I personally know what is that person's characteristics.
What pisses me off the most is when people tell lies when its so freaking obvious that your crapping. For example, Let's say I'm asking this person, to go home and research some question about a certain topic to be discussed the next week for further progression on the assessment.

This person, had the cheek to tell me, that there was not enough time, no internet, or some other crappy reasons that totally doesn't make sense. I know you have much "better things to do" but if you really don't want to do then tell me straight to the face. It would make my life easier as I don't need to rely on you.
Some people might say, "Oh, why bother with such a person from the beginning? Why can't you just ignore that person from the start?"

Well, Every person deserves a chance. I would give out the work to everyone from the beginning so it would not seem like I'm picking sides. But after the second try, I would know who to rely on and who I shouldn't even bother looking at. I know I would be sad if I entered a new group and the leader there totally ignoring me though I haven't even done anything yet.
So once you find a really true friend, one that is honest to you about everything regardless good or bad, Don't lose that friend. You'll only meet a friend like this very rarely.
I know I have got a few :)



On the side note,
Maplestory Red Is finally arriving at MapleSEA! Whooots~!

Knowing MapleSEA, There was quite a number of bugs already detected in the game and sadly I have problems patching my client :(
I did 2 recordings of me solo-ing Zakum and Von Leon before Red patch to see how much the patch had an impact on Shadower. I'll record once more and hopefully it'll be better :x
Since Red has arrived, I'll most probably start Mapling back again but not as much as I would back the days.
Got lots of work to do and almost moved towards Dota 2 :x

Found this Fan Art on Facebook.

Cute~! <3 p="">

Wex Exort Quas~! XD

Sometimes being Grateful is enough

 So as I'm no longer in A levels, currently in Foundation In Science (FIS) where its no longer fully exam oriented. Your marks is based on other events other then your final exam which only takes up 50% of the marks. The other 50% comes from quizzes, tests, assessments, and attendances.
Its a bit more relaxed compared to A levels on the speed of the teaching with the workload but its definitely more hectic as you constantly have to manage your time with assessments as well as dates of your next quiz or test of each subject for every week.

Now my general quiz marks for Chemistry is not really strong. I went through most of the quiz scored that I had acquired and it was kinda bad. Bad in a way that its not that low but its not as high as it should be as well. There are other subject that I'm okay but I prefer all my subjects to be well balanced and not 1 I can excel at and the other where it simply goes down the drain.
Perhaps I just need motivation

Then again, Its just how I seems to study. I don't really put enough effort. There are times I do study but from my point of view its simply just not enough yet I continue to do no changes whatsoever...

Whats wrong with me?

When I start to worry, I see other people with scored more less higher then me but regardless their like 10000x more stressed and worried then me. When I get my paper, I usually feel grateful that I didn't get lower and instead wonder why I couldn't get higher? Then move on to the next paper incoming.

I used to worry and worry about what will happen next and so on.

IT HAS NOT HAPPEN YET. WHY WORRY?!

YOUR PAPER HAS PASSED. WHY WORRY?!

Regardless of how much you worry, it ain't gonna change a single thing. The only thing you can do is "Keep Moving Forward~!" (Meet the Robinsons lawl)

If your disappointed with your marks, throw that piece of paper that resembles your past and work harder to be better in the future!

Somehow I think i managed to motivate myself o-o

To top it off, If I were still in A Levels, I would be sitting for A2 examination starting tomorrow. I could sit here being sad that I could be still there completing my course and heading to a Degree program with better results. Well, That ain't happening. I just have to look forward and hope what comes in the future would be better then what I had in my past

One of my fond memories that I had in picture with these 2 girls :)

And to All my friends currently in A levels whom are sitting for A2 examination , I bid thee all Good Luck!
You know what? As long as your taking any exams now or next week or the month after that. I wish you good luck as well. Just sit down and show that paper your da baws.
Then after completing that paper, don't even bother looking through or discussing the answers as the paper is already over. Keep your thoughts and prepare for the next upcoming challenge.

Feelings? Or just confused?

Yes, It's been a few months since the last update on January. Many things were happening even now. Everyone is so busy. Even my friends still at Taylor's College are going to sit for their final exam soon. If I didn't transfer out from there, I would sure be very stressed now with the amount of studying and revision that I have to do.

Enough about that.

I just feel like I'm so busy to the point that i don't even have enough time to talk to myself, to ask myself what do you wan to do? My family is not always around so mostly I spend time by myself. I'm close to my new friends at Lakeside but not really close friend that goes everywhere with me. So mostly I hang about talking to my old friends together with my high school friend but they are busy too.

Then I remembered this so yeah.

So here I am trying to study up for Chemistry, while doing some Statistics question. At the same time, trying to figure out what I'm thinking. My feelings. My emotions.Why am I thinking like this?

It's like I'm trapped all alone in some big dark vortex. There are so many people around me yet I feel so alone. Even the person that mean so much to me starts feel like a nuisance.

Maybe all of this would clear up after a good night sleep.

Or I should just focus all on my studies and leave everything behind? Since of course studies are the most crucial? But I wanna feel like I'm enjoying my university life. Or is it I'm just to closed and should be opened minded?

Times like this i really feel I'm still back in College with friends that I'm familiar with the same age. It really makes me feel comfortable and most definitely more happy since I can be more open to them compared to my new classmates. Yet after so long feels like I'm no longer even part of them. Back to square 1. Alone with my devices.

Perhaps really over thinking. Should focus more on my studies I guess...

Yeap, I'll go and dive in my books while covering up my feelings.